Monday, January 7, 2013
Finding a quiet mind while living with others
"Hi. How is it going." Not really a question, but I tried to make it sound like I really care. I don't. My heart races and I open my mouth. Trouble. Not for me. But for the other person hearing what is coming out of my vocals. No cursing. No anger. Just asking why are things they are.
Poor soul has no idea how to deal with that. I want to bite and bite. I need vindication. I need apologies and "Ok! I will fix it now!" Not the word "bitching".
You tell me to calm down. I'am. You are the one not ready for my barrage of requests. You see nothing us with different logic. I see a wrong that is done to me. This has nothing to do with you. It has to do with me. My fear of where I'm going next. Where Am I going?
At this moment, I will run, be quiet, let my emotions be. Love, pray, Silence.
Then breathe, listen, and talk.